LYRICS
1. Girl in Calico
It’s on your lips
Held like a fist
A concussive wish
To know you
You still laugh
To talk of the past
Now contrast
We’re strangers
I still recall the day that we meet
You we wearing your calico dress
Out of all the things that I regret
Honey you are not one of them
We are mirrors
The color clear
As we disappear
Life reappears
Our eyes are flint
I meant what I meant
In sickness and health
2. Revere
Winter’s branch stands deceived
Earth communing on her leaves
waiting to be like something else
Ray of sun struck the floor
My hands made puppets on the door
reaching to be like someone else
And I hear that the walls were coming in
I revere that you are still waiting
Have I taken you for granted?
Beside me always beside me
Beside me always beside me
There will grow in me a place
a garden of the things you say
To wait, and be okay with myself
Against the black midnight hour
Built in me a quiet power
To wait, and be okay with myself
And I hear that the walls crumblin’ in
I revere that you’re still waiting
And I hear that the walls crumblin’ in
I revere that you’re still waiting
Have I taken you for granted
Beside me Always beside me
Beside me Always beside me
Beside me Always beside me (x3)
3. Alright
If I’m not alright, will we be alright?
I don’t want to be right, I just want you
I don’t pretend to know the thoughts in your head
It’s easy when your eyes are always speaking
Why don’t we stay in each other’s arms
It’s hard to wield a knife when my hands inside yours
If I’m not alright, will we be alright?
I don’t want to be right, I just want you
My tongue is burnt by the fire I yearned
If good can turn bad then how do we discern
The face of pride is hard to forget
When it’s made of mirrors and I’m praising it
You…
If I’m not alright, will we be alright?
I don’t want to be right, I just want you
4. Gold Parade
If you see it
Ask it for me
Why it eludes me so
Sleep comes easy
It’s rest I still need
To slow my troubled mind
From the window there’s a frame, a tree a gold parade
Losing her leaves to winter’s name, see for me that I, see for me that I change
my restless ways
Time is winning
Always winning
We paint with permanence
If yoke is easy
Then bear my body
And bridle my thoughts
From the window there’s a frame, a tree a gold parade
Losing her leaves to winter’s name, see for me that I, see for me that I, Change
From the window there’s a frame, a tree a gold parade
Losing her leaves to winter’s name, see for me that I, see for me that I, Change
My restless ways
5. Liminal
Liminal became my creed, on the floor inside your house on New Year’s eve
The space between my head and heart, the distance often seems just too far
But I can’t stay like this,
I can’t stay like this,
I can’t stay like this,
Don’t leave me like this
I wasn’t looking but she found me
I wasn’t listening but she spoke
In her affection I am sinking
It’s while I was sleeping that I woke
Now the months and years have passed
The shadows have offered a strange kindness
Not a sort that’s rare or blind
But one that dances because of the fire’s light
Ooooooooo (3x)
Ohhhhhhhhh (2x)
6. When I'm Silent
Cold was the day that they came for you
The November sky was a hue
Of a lense we often look through
Two riders drive to the edge of the field
Where you played with what they thought was real
Waving of pistols pointing at you
This silence is violent
This silence is violent
No chance to explain no chance to say
The reason your body would break
And paint the snow bright red
Oh what a horror the empty arms
Of a mother’s heart that burns
To hold her boy once again
I pulled the trigger I held the gun
The smoking barrel of indifference
I pulled the trigger I held the gun
When I’m silent it’s violent, When I’m silent it’s violent
When I’m silent it’s violent, When I’m silent it’s just as violent (3x)
7. Consolations
We cut our tongues, on the grey of morning for the one we love
The sisters argued about what was done, as joy and sorrow often do
On the mantle hangs, our hearts with yours and all the sticky pain
The same thing that we have blamed, is the same thing we need
The shadow light can bring
In the joy and suffering
The shadow light can bring
In the joy and suffering
In the arms of saint felicity is a thousand storms
Quietly rusting but still giving hope
This is a comma not a period
Curse the birds for singing on a day when we have hurt
Trying to see through eyes that weeping blurred
If I could see you would it even change
Rend for me a thousand shades of blue
Give constellations new consolations
The shadow you cast continues
But a silver lining, silver lining
Wraps itself around you, wraps itself around you In a kindness only darkness proves
Wraps itself around you, wraps itself around you In a kindness only darkness proves
Wraps itself around you, wraps itself around you In a kindness only darkness proves
8. Going
If I was as tall enough to talk to birds
I’d pick you up in my arms with words
And lend your eyes, a sight to see
Just how much you mean to me
Just how much you mean to me
You were something I once knew, all the years that the changes drew
I have learned a thing or two, wherever I'm going I'm going with you
Wherever I’m going I'm going with you
Ooooo, Ooooo
Every September in the front yard
The trees will hold their leaves like cards
You were the hand that I was dealt
You're so good at hurting yourself
We’re so good at hurting ourselves
You were something I once knew, all the years that the changes drew
I have learned a thing or two, wherever I'm going I'm going with you
Wherever I’m going I'm going with you
Ooooo, Ooooo
Sobering are the arms of a clock
I could tell you just wanted to talk
Why do you need the pills to sleep?
To kill the monsters in your memory
To kill the monsters in your memory
To kill the monsters in your memory
To kill the monsters in your memory
To kill the monsters in your memory
To kill the monsters in your memory
All the years the changes drew (To kill the monsters in your memory)
All the years the changes drew (To kill the monsters in your memory)
Wherever I’m going, I’m going, I’m going,
I’m going with you
9. Revelator Man
Used to save my arrows for you, to shoot you down from the sky
Until It came a crashing proof, aimed at myself the whole time, the whole time
Hey, revelator man, made from my own two hands.
You were the wrong of a right, the wrong of a right,
Broken intention
I walked a line line line between
A lovely ghost and the real thing
Oh what a mirror mirror mirror I praise
Giving new names to old ways
I had never meant to cause you harm, Deciding who you’d be
Wait for me inside the rubble’s arms, Gather the parts worth saving
Selfish and faithful it all looks the same now
But I’ll break my lungs til we figure this out
10. Holy Water
Would you please tell me this I mean not to place blame
How can you love something that kills you all the same
Tell me what is just and what do you mean when you say found
If they call the waters holy does it mean that you can’t drown
Oh oh oh how I’ve tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried to find you
Well my thoughts they grew legs and ran with the wind
Not seeing what they were chasing but feeling it on their skin
Am I something to repair? Can you find for me some ground?
If they call the waters holy, does it mean that you can’t drown?
The same thistle round your head are the walls I find myself in
Though they say it's safe inside it seems the darkness I still reside
Amidst all the definition are experiences all around
Enough to make me wonder,
If you’re holy, does it mean
If you’re holy, does it mean...we can’t drown
Drown (3x)
11. I Can’t Help Myself
All the miles, black coffee in the back of the van in our barefeet
We were children, that time could, never tire, though it tried
I know now honey that we cannot pretend
It’s foolish thing but we do it over and over again
I can’t I can’t I can’t help myself
When it comes to this, I can’t help myself
I can’t I can’t I can’t help myself
When it comes to this, I can’t help myself
The confusion, all the pain
All the times I couldn’t articulate
And I'm thinking of the seasons
How they’re changing and how we do the same